My Stress

I’m very prone to getting stressed easily, especially over the little things and the way I handle it is not in the slightest bit healthy. Ever since I was young I would over think things and instead of trying to deal with it properly I would jump to drastic solutions. I’ve always dealt with having poor memory and growing up I was a very hyper child so it was hard for me to study. I still get distracted easily and am not good at sitting down and doing homework but I now focus in class more. Staying focused is still very hard for me but I’ve learned to semi maintain it.

Stress is something that I haven’t learned how to handle yet. Currently, the Stress has been getting worse due to more and more responsibilities that are placed on me. The stress has caused me to form anxiety and it takes a strong hold on me when I’m trying to work. The prim thing that gives me anxiety is when I’m think about my future because all my life I’ve known what I wanted to do but recently I’ve realized that was all just childish dreaming and that there is no way I could something like being a vet and I’ve lost interest in doing so but now with that dream dead I don’t know what to do because I’m not good at anything enough to pursue a career and now I’m just left idly standing and waiting for a calling. Being at the age I am now I should be thinking about the present more than just standing back and watching it all flash before me but since I don’t have hardly any control over my life I tend to miss huge opportunities for my future that could make it better.

My family is unaware of just how stressed I am and I don’t want them to know because I feel like I’d just be making a full circle back to the beginning and I know that they will say that shouldn’t be stressed over such things. From their view, I’m very relaxed and calm person that doesn’t seem to have a care in the world. My main source of stress is myself and my social life, I can’t get anything done and it shows with my grades and my health. Stress has caused resulted in me not sleep nor eating properly and those things just place even more stress on me. I’m very open about my stress with my close friends and they have begun to understand why I choose to be stressed rather than tell people who can help; its because I’m quite prideful and don’t like to ask for help and once I do start to ask for help I am then bombarded with questions and people feeling like they deserve answers that I don’t have. This time of the year is really hard for me because of exams, swim practice, home responsibilities, social needs, and things tend to build up till they all crash down on top of me and then everything is ruined. Like I stated at the beginning I don’t handle stress very well and will mentally start to melt but with Christmas break coming I’ll finally be able to get my head back on right.

“Stress” by The Uncommon Place share with attribution 2.0 generic (CC BY 2.0).