Happiness

With this new year, I’m hoping that I’ll be happier; most people make new year resolutions of things they want to be. I’m usually not one to make new year resolutions but this year I just want to be happy, not stress constantly or depressed like I have been these past two years. Happiness is something that most deserve and I wish I’m one of those who do. I’m the happiest when I’m with the people that mean the world to me, the one that brings me the most happiness is my best friend Sarah but we now live 9 hours away from each other and have very different sleeping schedules. In May or June, I will be hopefully moving back down south and that will most likely bring me more happiness than living here. Happiness is something that just accrues randomly by the weirdest things, like some youtube video of senseless humor. 497A4C12-B804-489A-9171-14D349AACB84.jpeg

“happiness rock” by smariesmithblog is shared under CC by 2.0 license 

Anger Issues

There’s a stereotype of redhead/gingers having really bad tempers and as a ginger, I can confirm that, at least for me, the stereotype is true. I have anger issues and only recently I’ve been able to contain it. Growing up the parents of my neighborhood didn’t like me playing with their kids because their kids loved to harass me and I’d hurt them for annoying me. My parents have named my anger “shark” for how a shark attacks its prey is the same way I fight people but I’m not the only one with anger issues in my family; my mom has her “bees” that you can also hear and it’s terrifying. My Dad’s anger is “a berzerker”, he used to fight a lot when he was younger and he most likely will when due to his size and amount of experience. When I get mad I tend to get blinded by the anger and I attack people without realizing what I am doing. The adults in my neighborhood were afraid of my family due to our anger and no fear of fighting. Anger is something we can control though and I have; people tend to no long tiptoe around me which is great. It took me three years to get it under control and now I rarely experience anger.Screenshot 2018-12-04 at 11.11.59 AM.png

Shark” by Teodum shared with attribution 2.0 generic (CC BY 2.0).

My Stress

I’m very prone to getting stressed easily, especially over the little things and the way I handle it is not in the slightest bit healthy. Ever since I was young I would over think things and instead of trying to deal with it properly I would jump to drastic solutions. I’ve always dealt with having poor memory and growing up I was a very hyper child so it was hard for me to study. I still get distracted easily and am not good at sitting down and doing homework but I now focus in class more. Staying focused is still very hard for me but I’ve learned to semi maintain it.

Stress is something that I haven’t learned how to handle yet. Currently, the Stress has been getting worse due to more and more responsibilities that are placed on me. The stress has caused me to form anxiety and it takes a strong hold on me when I’m trying to work. The prim thing that gives me anxiety is when I’m think about my future because all my life I’ve known what I wanted to do but recently I’ve realized that was all just childish dreaming and that there is no way I could something like being a vet and I’ve lost interest in doing so but now with that dream dead I don’t know what to do because I’m not good at anything enough to pursue a career and now I’m just left idly standing and waiting for a calling. Being at the age I am now I should be thinking about the present more than just standing back and watching it all flash before me but since I don’t have hardly any control over my life I tend to miss huge opportunities for my future that could make it better.

My family is unaware of just how stressed I am and I don’t want them to know because I feel like I’d just be making a full circle back to the beginning and I know that they will say that shouldn’t be stressed over such things. From their view, I’m very relaxed and calm person that doesn’t seem to have a care in the world. My main source of stress is myself and my social life, I can’t get anything done and it shows with my grades and my health. Stress has caused resulted in me not sleep nor eating properly and those things just place even more stress on me. I’m very open about my stress with my close friends and they have begun to understand why I choose to be stressed rather than tell people who can help; its because I’m quite prideful and don’t like to ask for help and once I do start to ask for help I am then bombarded with questions and people feeling like they deserve answers that I don’t have. This time of the year is really hard for me because of exams, swim practice, home responsibilities, social needs, and things tend to build up till they all crash down on top of me and then everything is ruined. Like I stated at the beginning I don’t handle stress very well and will mentally start to melt but with Christmas break coming I’ll finally be able to get my head back on right.

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Stress” by The Uncommon Place share with attribution 2.0 generic (CC BY 2.0).

New Orleans

The place of voodoo and partying; New Orleans is a place that everyone should visit at least once in their lives. New Orleans is a place of large history and several cultures, there is a lot to see there. New Orleans was founded in 1718 by a French company which inspires much of designs of the building and streets. Savary was very popular in the south and when the Africans brought their cultural they brought the voodoo beliefs with them and the belief is still strongly used and is one of the things that makes so New Orleans popular with tourism. New Orleans is host several parades and festivals throughout the year; my personal favorite being the Voodoo Fest, Krewe of Boo, and Mardi Gras.

Voodoo Fest is one giant concert with several bands playing on stages that match their genre of music throughout the designated location; I went when I was in 6th grade and I saw the Foo Fighters, The Dirty Bourbon River Show and AWOLNATION perform. Several people were drunk and high walking around just enjoying themselves and buying overpriced food and merchandise. Sadly I had been so tired that night me and my brother fell asleep on the ground during the Foo Fighter performance.

Krewe of Boo is an amazing parade to witness with everyone in costumes running enjoying themselves, the parade is full of lights and is quite similar to Mardi Gras. When I visited there my mom had made everyone themed costumes. My Dad had even been put on the front page of the newspaper due to his sugar skull costume but my favorite was when my dad and I were voodoo themed with my dad being the voodoo priest and myself being his voodoo doll.

Mardi Gras was quite the event when I went to witness it was 2017 and that was the year that a man ran over a crowd of people, I personally did not witness the act but was a block away and was unaware of what happened till four hours later. The Mardi Gras parade itself was very entertaining and very shocking due to the number of shirtless women freely (and very drunk) walking around and flashing the men on the floats to get the items they wanted.

New Orleans isn’t just parades and festivals but it is a very beautiful place to see if you know where you are going. The French Quarter is a very popular and beautiful place to go see along with the New Orleans city park. If you do enjoy partying and street performances then I recommend going Bourbon Street but if you are under the age 18 or can’t defend yourself well I don’t recommend that you stay on that street after 9:30pm because there are several bars on that street and the people can be dangerous when intoxicated, some don’t even have to be intoxicated.

Although New Orleans is a beautiful place and a good place to have a good time it can be very dangerous to do a large number of people that often flood the streets in the evening. it’s best to stay in a group and spend sightseeing times during the day. But do enjoy New Orleans and see the culture.

Key West

Key West is the Southernmost Point of the Continental US and just over the horizon is Cuda at 90 miles away. It’s a beautiful place to go any time of the year due to it being close to the equator with beautiful daytime weather and the island itself is made coral and it has no natural beaches with the sand being imported from the Bahamas. It’s a great place to go snorkeling and diving, fishing, sightseeing, or just party at. It is a very small island with an impressive history behind it; such as the number of hurricanes that have hit, the Ernest Hemingway house with its six-toed cats, the Bahia Honda Rail Bridge, the oldest house on Key West, the free-roaming chickens, key west cemetery, and the 7-mile bridge; you can learn about these things on one of the several history tour buses. Although the island is just barely over 7 miles in size it has a large population of 26,990 residents and there are several tourists that go down throughout the year. It is referred to as a gay paradise do its large acceptive community and there is a part of Duval street that is just dedicated to gay bars, clubs and stores. It’s a wonderful place to visit with friends and family and I’ve been going there for 7 years even 2-3 times a year due to its beautiful surrounding ocean and wonderful sightseeing. I recommend going at some point in your life to experience the beauty yourself.